Not Sleepy Chatter

Let's talk.  It's just after 2 a.m. and I'm not sleepy and it's rather annoying.  so I'm just gonna ramble on until the tiny font and today's country on Pandora put me to sleep.  How's that sound?

 I have find of ideas for this blog but the challenge is actually sitting down to write about them.  You see, I have two large problems getting in my way.  Number one is that I'm a senior in high school and I'm super busy with end of the year stuff as well as various extracurriculars.  Number two is that I have an extreme problem with procrastination.  Like, it's a serious issue.  Oh well.  Nobody is perfect.

I'm super thrilled to be graduating, but I've noticed some things that don't make sense to me.  Most importantly, why is the graduation  ceremony such a big deal to people other than the graduates?  I'll elaborate.  At my school each graduate gets four seat tickets for family and/or friends.  People without tickets are welcome, of course, they just have to stand.  But anyway, I have a twin  brother so my family gets twice the tickets.  Obviously Liam and I don't need a ticket, but three of them will be used by our mom, dad and younger brother.  That leaves five tickets left over, and there honestly isn't anyone else that I want to invite.

Only my dad's mom is still living but we don't see her too often and I don't know what she's planning on doing.  Both of my maternal grandparents are alive, though, and they're being kind of obsessive about it.  We've had some days off due to weather and apparently my pop has been calling the school on a regular basis to keep up with the changing graduation date.  And here's the thing...I don't want them to come!

 Call me heartless, whatever.  My pop really doesn't like me and I'm not his biggest fan either.  My gram means well but she's a lot to handle sometimes (most of the time).  Graduation is supposed to be for me.  My grandparents contributed nothing to my success.  I got where I am today largely by my own inner drive and always with the love and support of my parents.

 So I'm happy to walk across the stadium and collect my diploma (I've actually spent a lot of time debating about whether or not graduation is mandatory.  Finally my mom just asked if I would please do it for her.  So fine, for her) and I'm happy to pose for pictures with people I've known since preschool and will probably never see again come August.  But I'm not going to feel compelled to go home after graduation and hang with my grandparents.  Sorry, not gunna happen.

 Wow this took a negative turn. When I typed the first words of this blog all I could think about is how the self tanner I put on before bed is giving me a headache.  I thought I was going to ramble off about tanning and the tribulations that a pale white, black haired Irish girl faces as summer approaches.  Well.  Apparently 2 a.m. makes me grumpy.

New blog, New blog!

This blog was born from a multitude of ideas and efforts; first, my old blog is dying , second, I am loving my honors economics class and want a place to write down all my ideas on how to save the world, and third, because humanity can be disappointing and I want a place to remember what I was thinking and when I was thinking it and hopefully someday realize that the problems of 2013 were solved and the world is happy.

Now to explain why all of those things are worthy of a whole entire blog...

I have another blog.  It's called Defined by the Dance and you can find it here.  It started out as a way to sporadically document my one true passion; dance.  Unfortunately, as you can read about because it's all the last few months' posts have featured, I went and fractured bones in each of my feet and I am no longer allowed to dance (for the time being, I am determined to get back as soon as possible!).  Read the whole story there, I don't think I need to drag that mess onto this blog, but it's been nearly 8 months of brokenness due to misdiagnosis-es on the doctor's end and refusal to be a good patient on my end.  So anyway, without dance in my life the blog kind of doesn't have a point anymore.  Enter new blog.

As far as economics goes, I won't get too far into it right now.  I will tell you that the class is super interesting and I'm really enjoying it.  We have a lot of discussions and we always seem to come up with ideas that could be potential solutions to the state of affairs in the country right now.  Like I said, you'll hear plenty of this later.

And one final thing before I sign off: why did I call this blog "Conservatively Optimistic".  The conservative part comes largely from my political standpoint, my econ teacher always laughs at how conservative my brother and I are, you'll probably see it as I continue to post things.  Then the optimistic at the end is because I think (cautiously) that there is hope for a brighter future.  Not tomorrow, and probably not in a year, but I believe we'll get there someday.

Tata for now,
MK